Working and motherhood ....

I have been debating whether to publish this post or not. It is a bit personal.
I say it every time, I know. I really don't want to make this blog about parenting or mothering but occasionally the topic just comes up. I guess I am reluctant to talk too much about it, just in case I bore you!
The past few months have been so busy in our household. The little man has been experiencing what seems like constant illness and that combined with shift work, motherhood and contributing to the running of our household, is fast becoming too hard. I so wanted to seem like the super mum who could work 5 days a fortnight (mostly night shifts - 10 hours nights shifts mind you!), capably care for her family and have a neat, tidy, organised home, but I am not. No, unfortunately I am not a robot. It would seem that working and caring for a one year old, at least for me, is not quite that easy after all. I have felt like time is just passing us by. The little man is growing up before our very eyes. I can't believe it is nearly June! Seriously, how did that happen?
So, after much deliberation and a few tears, I have decided to reduce my shifts to two shifts per week and I am also pulling the little man out of childcare. Fingers crossed this will all come together in a month or so. I figure we can try childcare again next year and in the meantime, the little man's immune system can take a break from overdrive. It is time to get my little family back on track! Some decisions as a parent are so difficult and I have struggled with this one, but hopefully this decision will provide us with the opportunity to regroup and be as well as possible for the remainder of the year.
Here is a photo taken of us in the early days. This shot was taken by my brother, Tom. He is quite the talented photographer don't you think?
I love this photo for obvious reasons - even if it does accentuate my big nose! Look at my beautiful little boy - good enough to eat he is!

I have been thinking that it may be time to re-immerse myself in some of Sarah Napthali's books.
I have found her books so helpful in the past, especially when I have felt like I have lost focus on the important things in life. What do you find helpful when you are trying to regain perspective?

PS. I promised my husband I wouldn't put any current photos of the little man on this blog but figured this pic didn't count ;)